Those movie moments...

My favorite part of life is those moments where life feels like the ending of a happy movie, where life is so good, it just couldn't get any better! When your face hurts from smiling. Why do those moments end?
My brother decided that he doesn't want to come back to Kamp this year. If I don't go, I would probably go insane. I'm thinking maybe I can take his spot? I don't know, my mom might say no. Yep, I am feeling kinda depressed for no apparent reason. The frosh retreat was AWESOME!! Oh my goodness, we had soooo much fun. There was adoration, and girl time, and singing and everything! Man, I was so wrong about my class!

So it might have been a while...

I have been soooo busy these past few weeks. The play went great, with a few exceptions of fainting audience members, costume emergencies and falling set, but we did manage to sell out every night! Wow, I mean this is crazy! I have been feeling really weird about the play though. I'm a freshman, one of three to make the play. I have the lead role, ad I've never been in a play before. There are a lot of things in m,y life I love, but I can't have all of them, and that makes me sad. Like drama, drumline, band, kamp, Schooner (Riggin) family, friends, a life. There is just so much that I want, and I want it forever, that I just can't keep. I don;t know how I'm going to do it. Wow, that was depressing. My biggest thing right now is that I have only made like 350 dollars towards going to kamp. I'm fairly sure I will lose my sanity if I don't go back every year. Although, I am really worried about going to K2, I will always feel like K-West is my home! Man I love kamp! This week I wasn't alowwed to wear any jewelry because of the play. I spent an hour and a half taking off my unrealy deal necklace, my all around bracelet, my anklets from kamp, and my purity necklace WITHOUT cutting them. Impressive I know, but I felt so weird without them on this whole week! Well, I should probably go to bed, probably.

Definition of manic=my life

We open in 3 days!! The miracle worker rules my life! I am excited but scared too. I don't feel like a really perform the role that well. I wish that I wasn't so nervous about it. Although it is an odd role. I can't act like another person, I have to act like a giant toddler. Also, at the very end I say "wah, wah" but it has to sound weird, almost guttural. They didn't sand down the top of the plat form that I have to crawl all over, so now i am covered in splinters. Yep, I've got dedication.